My first erotic dream came from Prince's Dirty Mind poster my friend, Pam had at her house. I had finally met someone young and obsessed with him, too. She had grown sisters who were so tickled by our friendship and endless Prince sharing, that they got tickets for us to see The Purple Rain concert. I babysat to earn money to buy this purple button down shirt and pin stripped Lee jeans to wear. I played with my hair, hoping to look like one of his protégés. My mother, not understanding how deep this was for me, didn't allow me to go because there was no ticket for my sister. I tore the shirt off, threw it down the stairs and locked myself in my room (well closed the door lol). I think I stopped talking for two weeks. Yesterday, she called to make sure I was alright. I cried a lot and was a mess all day. I was never and still not understood, besides being a nice girl. I always felt like he expressed my inner side so deeply. Almost every musican I met became one because of him. I fell in love with Nina Simone because he said in Ebony magazine that she was one of his influences. I'm so grateful, like many others, that he soundtracked my entire life and development. He was free and boy was he beautiful.

4/22/16

What if everyone's first thought: whether looking in the mirror, interacting with people, moving about the world, was to inspire? What would that look like to you? How easy would it be to judge, if your first thought was compassion? Even when seeing other's insecurities, fears and pain? How could you inspire others with what you say, how you hold your energy, how you conduct yourselves, how you make space for yourself and others? I say less judgement more compassion. Less criticism more thoughtfulness. Less gossip and group think more investigation and cultivation. Everyone is not for everything. We are all here to learn and grow. We are all needed. Individually and as a collective. Nothing is wrong with being wrong: let's work on communicating in higher ways. Everyone evolves in their own time. Be easy.  Incorporate honesty, integrity, curiosity and empathy in your dealings. Walk away from low vibrations that drag you away from your center and purpose. Trust the God working through you. Inspire, be inspired, be more loving. Don't forget yourself! We have work to do.

9/12/16

how many women were shamed because they developed early? how many received inappropriate attention, advances and commentary from men when they were 10-14 (most definitely 15-17) because of their bodies or beauty? we have to gather our girls, adult girls (some get stuck) and women in serious, specific dialogue. i could get deeper but you know. those who know what to do and those who are doing it know what i mean. yeah. all the meanings.

9/16

I BELIEVE in US. This war is sooo subtle, so ingrained in the fabric of American culture, so covert that the main people who should be aware are decidedly resolved and uninvolved. I believe in the Art of War. When they go hard, we go soft. Now it's time to love up on each other, make sure everyone is alright, have what they need, police our own communities, monitor the schools, show more compassion for those who have lost their way, make sure the children are safe, protected, loved on, fed, heard. Make sure the elders are not lonely and well taken care of. Time to recreate culture, community. Time to redefine all relationships and all relating. Looking at social media, the news, listening in on people's open conversations about what we hear about and those things only the locals know; listening in on what we hate about the opposite sex; how we openly degrade, downgrade and debate on issues that should be in separate houses (yes, they are some issues only for women and some only for men) is disheartening. I still believe in US. Let's change the way we see, think, listen, speak, do for each other. Hold our truths up unapologetically like shields of strength, a special skill set needed to fight this war on hope. Let's arm and teach each other how to survive not just physically but emotionally and spiritually. Your first community is your home. Your family. Let's decide there first. Collective thought is power.   Collective healing is a must. It's not a privilege for only those who are aware of what's happening but needed more for those who don't have a voice. Generations of sickness, sadness, disappointment and despair that we wish to wish away. The NOT US is US, too. As a teacher, you are as good as your most challenging student. Who can you reach out to today? Who are you willing to listen to without judgement? Who can you give to without a fb post to commemorate? How are you working to heal and change your own heart about the world around you? What's going on with the world inside of you? We have a lot of work but we are MAGIC. Don't let them pull you from your center. Don't give into the lie of hopelessness you see around you. You are the hope. I believe in us. Let's arm and equip each other. Beat them with our brilliance.

11/5/15

Be loving or be silent. People who need help or support usually ask for a specific type of help. They know exactly what they need. It usually requires YES or NO. People who need help shouldn't have to run down their entire scenarios, play by play to receive judgement or unsolicited advice. People who ask for help don't want to be treated like they are 12, powerless and in need of guidance. People who need help don't need your ego, projections and photo ops. Some choose which way to help folk based on how they want to look to other people. Some only help so you can be well enough to go back and to help them. Society has become so individualistic that a person who needs help is treated as a criminal, a bum, a loser, an opportunist or weak. The ones who actually are these things get plenty of help! Why can't a person who needs help, just be a person who needs help? It can be anyone at anytime. Let's be gentle with each other. No one knows what another is facing. Sometimes just loving energy, prayers or silence helps more to increase the vibration. Do unto others...or be SILENT. Some help is no help at all. Check your ego and your heart.


9/25/14

my mommy says, "don't say what you don't want." many speak in anger and fear, few are brave enough to weather a sea of the unknown. we cling to what we mistakenly think will protect us. we become defensive when there's no sail, just emotions. love is wonderful and scary. if you trust the water, you'll see how strong you really are, grow and discover new aspects that only love can bring out.

There are some people born bubbly and excited about life. It is not a skimpy dress put on for show. However, I will wear that dress, but because it makes me happy and I like me! These same bubbly, happy types are frequently misjudged as too nice, not bright, flaky, or without boundaries. Not THIS woman. I will NEVER apologize for my natural disposition or the many facets that make me! I'm proud to be a highly intelligent, formidable force, honest and giving. I was not raised to hit people below the belt or use manipulative tactics to make myself feel good. I celebrate everyone, although I'm amidst those who only celebrate themselves. I do it with pure joy regardless. Belittling the efforts or effervescence of ME, ie discredit, sexualization, bulldozing, BOXING INTO CATEGORIES will be met with my sweet, bubbly, exciting, SILENT indifference. Project that mess into the mirror, not towards ME! Don't mess with the QUEEN. Said with total love and respect for everyone. Save some respect for me.


6/14