gut instincts are a call to go deeper into meditation and prayer. take it to the Creator. spend time in silence and nature. clean your space and clear your thoughts. make art. take the time you need to come to center. no one can give you what God can. you owe no one for taking space to connect with your own divinity. send love and healing energy to all and everything you don't understand. take time for self care. write. move your body. accept all of yourself: where you are, who you are,  who you want to be and how you want to do it. move in peace.

4/16

I don't want to be in the league of people who love to show and share murdered black people. What do you do? We need to acknowledge that there was a life. We need to hear and pray with the family and friends. A public grieving.
It's not enough. I watch and then I don't anymore. I cry and pray. I refuse to live in fear. I'm even more scared because there is no protection for black women. We barely make the news or neighborhood conversation when these things happen to us. Yet we will be on the front line. I'm sickened by the state of affairs.

7/7/16

Go ahead and hate selfies (hate that word) if you want, but I love to see Black women love up on themselves in a world who treats us as if our beauty shouldn't be! The other day, this older woman with a walker with a bright, yellow zebra and flower print dress asked if I know how to work an iPhone. She asked me to take her picture. She wanted to be under the tree. She threw her head back, smiled and posed. The leaves were shading her satiny dark chocolate almond face, barely a wrinkle. We changed direction. She threw that head back again. Tree still shading her. I wanted her to see herself, you know? We went to another tree, younger with leaves reaching up and out. This time when she threw her head back, this beautiful woman smiled the most magnificent smile, stuck her leg out and flung her fist all sassy on her hip! I had her take two more poses and she didn't hesitate! She then went to sit on her walker, thanked me and showed me the pics she took of herself. I showed her how to angle the phone down so she wouldn't have a big chin. We laughed. She told me they call her a "Facebook competitor." I told her she'll shut them down with her new pics.  She then showed me pics of her grandson's prom. I watched her upload her new pics. I thanked her and continued my morning walk.
Sometimes I see young Black girls taking pics of themselves on the train, my own daughter in the mirror or using the light from the window, my friends on Facebook, my own self- many of us who never see our images reflected back to us as positive, beautiful and even at all. I smile to myself each time I see this. We can get deeper, but it's really not that deep. You don't like it, scroll by fast, that's all. Life is short. It's the little things,  you know? Affirm yourself, no matter who you are, with whatever makes you feel good!

5/19/15

You can learn from everyone. It is not my practice to negate the wisdom, energy and blessings of those younger than me. I revere them as I do my elders, just in a different way. At this age, I'm between worlds. I've spent equal time as youth and adult. It can be tricky or a blessing. I seek to uplift those youth who have something to say and give, allowing space for them to grow, providing true unbiased support without belittling their wisdom, paths or intelligence. I can also be taught! I hope my elders will see and do the same for me as well. Everyone has their time, there's no expiration. Each "time" has something specific and special to give for that individual and those around them. There is no competition! Creator may I work hard to free myself up from what I think I've missed and embrace what this now moment brings, providing strength, encouragement and motivation from my presence/life's work: from who I am in this world at my simplest and most complex. May those who are now elders to me also do the same with me. May the blessings flow easily, equally and in time for everyone. May we all be uplifted from our own unique and beautiful paths. Love only. Ase.


9/16/14

Don't. Come. For. Us. You don't know Black Women. We don't need weapons. Trust. Our MOTHERS are watching. We'll even gather the broken! Whoever you are, whatever your agenda we will win. We are armed with the blood of our ancestors. Any attempt to annihilate us, spiritually, emotionally, physically, psychologically will be met with the eternal curse to your children and your children's children. And so on. And so forth.
Keep killing our people? Keep tearing down our babies? Whoever you are and whatever your agenda is dead. The big and the small. Macro and micro. The shift has begun! Trust. Can you feel it? Hold on great ones. Believe! Mothers are watching. Love on.

8/11/16

up working in silence. i love the hummmm...the cars here and there. house whistling and creaking in surprising moments. big girl mumbling/baby laughing while asleep. heartbeat/body still moving like coming in from a night of dancing. my feet tingle.

last year was so noisy: i was deaf.

happy new year to me.


1/4/14

who we think we are has absolutely nothing to do with who we truly are inside. some hate you so much they think they love you. some hate themselves so much they pretend they love themselves and others. some spend their lives being exactly who people have decided they should be. some spend their lives denying their true selves because of pain, anger and fear, running from people, trying to control love, refusing to allow joy. many spend most of their lives always blaming others for whatever they don't have. it takes a lot to confront yourself, what doesn't work, what you need to get over and through. spirituality is a conduit but it requires faith + action. friends can help but ultimately it is you! it requires getting up and starting over when you think you've finally started pulling it all together. it means digging deeper thru disappointments, false starts, fake friends, other's agendas, things not moving quickly enough, death of love ones or loss of security. sometimes it all happens at the same time!
only you know you and what to do. time to work from the inside out and get it done! remember to love yourself thru it all...even if you gotta keep reminding yourself over and over, even cry with a purpose...when it's your time, it's your TIME. setbacks are part of growth; it just means there's something you missed and need to correct. there's no fear!


12/26/14