the sun is beaming on the left/ a dragoncloud beneath it breathing fire.
Sunday, June 27, 2021
Saturday, June 26, 2021
Happy birthday, GM (Thelma Tapscott Alford)
We all smile like GM. We miss your soft, sweet ways. The gentleness in your eyes and demeanor. Calm sea in your voice. Brushing your hair into two or four plaits and pinning them to the top of your head. The Blackberry lipstick you wore on special occasions. No one leaves without a piece of fruit from you! How light the rain fell the day you left us. How we laughed! You are still sooooo loved, even by the children that never met you! Happy Birthday, GM.
Friday, June 25, 2021
Full moon release
releasing the past with love. transforming pain into a fountain of possibility. forgiving myself for taking it personally. looking forward to honoring the new self emerging from the chrysalis of experience, time and healing...you ain't seen nothing yet!
Musing
i am not one to be put in place
even nicely so
you will never learn a woman
kicking dirt on her fire
Memory of Morning 6.25.2015
i got up with the thunderstorm. it's been hours...hearing it trickle out now, the birds and a random car or two: morning song toccata and fugue. the sunrise coming in feels like dragonflies escaping my belly.
Musing Memory & Mirror 6.25.2015
The healing process is not always pretty but if you want higher consciousness, more from life, a better you- you have to be willing to let it out and let it go. The truth is you can't give to anyone what you haven't given to yourself first. Just because you did it before doesn't mean you won't have to do it again! Loving yourself as you are (all the parts) takes practice. Accepting where you are doesn't mean that you won't feel crazy peeling layers, surveying your heart and looking in the mirror. I work to accept people as they are even when it is not what I may want or ready to hear. I'm working to love my imperfect self when things don't go my way...for some folk and for some situations, they have a calm sense of acceptance. Some even avoid. sometimes we just have to let the hot tears stream, make some noise and then get quiet. I know it's all ok but first I'm going to allow myself to be human. this has nothing to do with anyone but me. I am strong but I am allowing myself to just BE, no matter how ugly. tomorrow I'll laugh, play and create. I'm tired. Right now, I am gonna just rest and accept everything with love. I admire those who are able to do this effortlessly and I'm blessed to be surrounded by those who prioritize self care. You can't do everything alone, I'm learning. Time to refresh and refuel. Time to get by a pretty tree and listen to some water. Time to listen within with love.
Tuesday, June 22, 2021
Wants Her Love/punk
Wants Her Love
She's a little woman
but her spirit is tall
The night of their first kiss
was her biggest fall
he thought her fantastic
but a little too much
but their bodies electric
each time they would touch
goes far and forgets her
comes back to be loved
he doesn;t want to love her
just wants her love
goes far and forgets her
comes back to be loved
doesn't want to love her
just wants her love
he loved her for himself
doesn't see her at all
each time she opens up
he wished he small
she loves him so she forgets
she thinks she'll die without him
even when he leaves for days
she takes him back in
he won't call and he shouldn't
he won't call but she will
whenever he's around, her head is down
she never says what she feels
goes far and forgets her
comes back to be loved
doesn;t want to love her
just wants her love
goes far and forgets her
comes back to be loved
doesn't want to love her
just wants her love
he loved her for himself
he didn't see her at all
each time she opens up
he wished her small
she loved him so she forgets
thinks she'll die without him
even when he leaves for days
she takes him back in
he won't call and he shouldn't
he won't call but she will
she pleads, PLEASE DADDY
please Daddy come bring me my fill
goes far and forgets her
comes back to be loved
doesn't want to love her
just wants her love
goes far and forgets her
comes back and be loved
doesn't want to love her
just wants her love
just wants her love
just wants her love
he just wants her love
he wants he wants he wants he wants he wants he wants he wants he wants her love he wants her love
he wants he wants he wants her love
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Musing on Summer Solstice 6.21.2021
It was thunder and lightning in spots during the day and endlessly overnight. Big big. I followed the light and watched the show instead of sleeping. I went outside during the breaks between to feel the energy. Blessed summer solstice.
Monday, June 21, 2021
Fathers
Father, as with Mother, is also an action verb. Thank you Creator for my Father. His presence, wisdom, clarity, honesty and love gives me wings. Give thanks for all those who Father! To shift the vibration of all that happens in the world that we can't even fathom and to propel what's good to an even higher place, we are called to come together as community. The family structure is in constant motion. We need the Fathers and Mothers to coexist! I'm grateful everyday for all who Father albeit their biological children, bonus children (no, a man is not a punk or whipped when he steps in where another walked out), school children, neighborhood children, nieces, nephews and even adult children. We NEED your maleness, we need your vision, your strength, your protection, your peace. WE NEED YOU. Look at us. We need you.
Sunday, June 20, 2021
Musing 6.20.2020
Asking and questioning are two different things. We are trained way too well. It's so deeply ingrained, our "so called" forward motion is the biggest trap of them all. It's usually geared to the best and the brightest; those who have survived "your system." We cannot even be liberated alone. Strings and landmines everywhere.
For the ones who see 6.20.2020
They are playing with us. Openly mocking us. The revolution must be televised? Much much double talk in this ENTIRE thing. ALL OF IT. What are WE gaining? They could pull the plug at any minute. Been pulling a lot of them. Never stops.
Don't allow them to dictate how and when your revolution occurs. There has to be something left that's sacred. Start inside. It'll direct you for sure. You ain't even gonna want to share. Until you do and you will know when and who, too.
Friday, June 18, 2021
open season: story in haiku
open season
handsome/smiling face
decorated in egg shells
release: hard and slow
her smile: so fragile
tears seeping into the cracks
wipes with one quick sweep
tries to remember
when things were light/free/fun
love: open season
she has no regrets
poured it all in one basket
did not see the holes
works on looking soft
pulls the dress over her head
dabs perfume here/there
masked uncertainty
cerebral/haughty/aloof
she does not look down
rides thru like Zorro
picks them/loves them/discards them
broken hearts break hearts.
Thursday, June 17, 2021
Muse bout love
The John to my Alice. The Ossie to my Ruby. The Geoffrey to my Carmen. The Malcolm to my Betty.
Goals.
Musing on voting 6.17.2020
Voting shouldn't be like buying rotten meat because it's on sale. Sick of folks saying I'll vote for so and so even if he was laid out on a stretcher, smoking a crack pipe and eating watermelon. If we have to do it, as you say, how do you convince young voters? Some of the same people showing love and appreciation for the youth being on the front lines, are also the same youth you've marginalized, abused, forgotten or ignored. I've even heard some blame the younger folk for bad orange being in office because they didn't vote. It was not. It didn't help.
What can we promise will change for those who are young with energy, fire, intensity, intelligence, courage that have created their own support systems without us? How do you convince potential voters who have had to address their own needs?
Current administration tactics between the buffoonery act, fine print and real quick says: local government is nothing. Sorcery for his folk. Sorcery on this process. Each city/state has its own needs. Many youth use state programs out of necessity. Draw the line locally to the candidates who will push for what directly affects their community and their WORK. Many of the youth are advocates. They need skills and training. They need the truth and structure, not your ego or God complex or biased adult view. You cannot come in acting as if you know them. Some are advocating for themselves and being killed with no support. How do we best advocate for the new activists?
There have always been grassroots organizations that fight for the common man with little to no resources. Always. What candidates will provide funding so that these self made organizations can serve and train more people? How will they ensure the constituents have physical, emotional and financial support? If they don't or won't, how do we, on each block, assess the needs ourselves? What can we do block by block? Give the youth something to work with. Seen not heard didn't work on us, why do we expect differently from them? How do we meet in the middle?
Thoughts on Juneteenth 6.17.2020
Can you imagine getting a raise but they still pay you the same as before for two years? All of a sudden, you receive a notice that you were supposed to be paid your raise two years ago. You get the raise but not the time or back pay. How would you feel? Now that is serious capitalism.
Now imagined if you were stolen, enslaved, separated, packed like sardines in excrement and dead babies amongst dead bodies, some thrown overboard without burial, brought to stolen land, forced to procreate with your own children, whipped, beaten, hung, worked worse than a mule, forced to nurse a foreign child before your own, your own children used as foot warmers, forced against your will to have children that are not your husband's while you are servant and he owns you, your husband and your children. The list goes on. Say you find out their laws finally say you are free. Imagine you look closer at the fine print and find out you were free two years prior. Imagine the same country was built of of the mortgages of your people. Seen as less than human. You. Who come from a great culture. Imagine you still survive and thrive despite it all. Imagine in the future, they tried to commodify such a deep tragedy,while the gross injustices are still happening. CAPITALISM.
We claim space to honor this deep INJUSTICE. You have no right to center yourself in this discussion, other than to listen and take in this truth of history. I'm seeing articles that the new "code" for Juneteenth is fighting for racial equality. That's erasure. That absolves how that event and every event before or following has undermined our people. Sit in truth. That's all. It is a day to honor ancestors, our way.
Be human. Learn something. We don't need another holiday. We need some land, arrests made, folk freed, land esp the Black townships you destroyed that go for high prices now, all our art, all our music, all our intellectual property. We will take the arrests for now. #Juneteenth
Wednesday, June 16, 2021
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